I think about you and i’m suddenly happy because you exist and then i am sad because I can’t have you and then I smile again because I should be grateful I get to exist at the same time you exist and the cycle goes on and on every minute of the 1440 minutes that a day has because I think about you everyday because you are my everything.
I’m left breathless when your beautiful nose and beautiful eyes and beautiful lips and beautiful laugh pops up in my head. You’re a burst of happiness for my being.
It ends when I realize you are not my burst of happiness and it hurts and hurts and keeps on hurting until my lips form a smile again when another thought of your smile appears in my head and heart.
You are so beautiful. It’s mesmerizing. It’s unbelievable. You’re devastatingly perfect and i’m devastatingly not perfect for you, and that’s okay. Because I know our future will never become a reality, it’s just one of those dreams that are too big to become true. That’s the truth and I accept it. But if I ever get to tell you something with the hope that your warming ears will listen is:
You are beautiful, so, so beautiful.
Ps. Yes, i LOVE Shawn Mendes.