I like hiding myself.
I fade the world around me and convert it into a great black hole in which I am unable to find who I am.
A place where not even shadows can scare me. A dark surrounding which blinds me and does not allow me to face the reality of the outside world.
I am an insider. I choose to become insignificant instead of standing up. I have learned that people nowadays do not want to hear you. Sometimes, they don’t even want to hear themselves.
Everyone talks bull and does shit and that is why everything is bullshit.
Hiding myself is the key to escape. It means to run away from problems, not because I am a coward, but because nobody stands a chance against the kryptonite of society.
Killing, raping and robbing are not the enemies anymore. The beast is now us. We have become allies of violence, discrimination and sexism.
Hiding myself means ignoring the real me. Too scared to accept that I whine but take no action to defeat the essence of the beast consuming me.
Maybe I am a coward after all, who does not dare stop the kryptonite from exploding and I try to hide the fact that people are getting killed by it. I am too focused on the consequences I will receive: insults, laughs and threats amongst others. I let them convince me to not do something.
That dark hole will start to become smaller and will shrink to the point where I can no longer breathe. Just like that, I will become my own pray as I decided to be in this hole of darkness.
My punishment will be to watch innocent people on the outside get killed and knowing in my last moments that I could have saved them.
I will no longer like hiding myself because the hiding would not exist anymore as the disappearance takes over.
– (the person reading this who unconsciously encourages violence, discrimination and sexism by not standing up for victims)
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